Talking to My Son Nick's Log

 My son turned 13 on January second. Another Birthday I can't see him face to face or call him to wish him a Happy Birthday. I get that it's my fault I'm behind bars, that sure the heck don't make it easier on him or me. I'd begun to wonder whether he wanted to communicate with me. Most times when we'd have a chance to talk on the phone ( Thanks Mom!) he'd seem distracted or like he'd rather be doing anything else..LOL However I realize most kids these days may not know how to communicate properly thanks to technology ie; texting! He called my Mom asking her if I'm allowed to talk to him. Mom of course said yes. He then told her to give me his number! I'll tell y'all, when Mom said that, tears came to my eyes. Yeah I know, I'm the big bad guy..but it's the truth! I was so happy that Caleb wanted to talk to me, wow. My prayers were being answered! I'd just sent him a hand written letter for Christmas and wondered if that's why he asked on that day. My Mom was going to set it up so I can call him Monday after school, but I told her to tell his Mom. See folks, I have never and will never tell Caleb anything bad about his Mom. I will however not lie to him if he asks why I never called him or wrote him. I pray he received what I've written via Jpay or mail! I've just received word that his Mother doesn't want me to have his number and that we should do a 3 way call first. Number One, why?! I'm sure she's at least read what I've written to him and I always try to include something positive about her when I write. I sure ain't going to talk smack because I will NOT ever try to dishonor her or sow discord in their relationship! Number Two, we aren't even allowed to do 3 way calls! ( Sigh ) I'll tell you what, I thank God He IS the God of reconciliation! The God I serve is powerful and able! So the good news is, He has answered my prayer and is working on the second part. Which is the softening of her heart and reconciliation between us. Not marriage.. she's married already, but open communication between us both and forgiveness. Our child deserves it. We both Love him, he needs us both!