No Pain too Big for Jesus

 We have a lot of time to think being locked up in prison. I've been thinking about my failures as a Dad and Step Dad. Failures of relationships too. It's frustrating to say the least because I can't communicate my feelings to the ones that I've hurt. I want to so very bad! Yet for reasons I have no control over I am stopped from doing so. A restraining order for one..and bitterness due to unforgiveness well, on both fronts actually. To reconcile these relationships would be so great! I want the people I've hurt to know, I am a changed man. I want them to know Jesus as I do! To live not as a victim but as a victor through Christ Who lives in those who give their lives to Him! To be abused by one who is supposed to protect you is so damaging. But you don't have to live as if you are damaged goods! Jesus is right there! He's saying come all who are burdened and heacy laden and I will give you rest. Those who claim Christ as Savior may not understand the power in His name. There IS power! The very power that rose Him from the dead lives in His children! The Apostle Paul said "I can do all things through Christ Who gives me strength" (Phillipians 4:13) To the people I have hurt. I understand the pain you have gone through, even what you are going through. I ask you in the name of Jesus to lay those burdens down at His feet! You don't have to carry them on your shoulders anymore! I know. I was there. Now I am free. The burden of my past, the abuse I endured and even gave, is gone! No weight on my shoulders. Do I feel regret, or am I sorry for the pain I have caused? Heck yes! That's why, I say, I am sorry. That's why I try to let y'all know my thoughts and feelings. So maybe someone out there won't live their life like I did..in pain and heaviness. In fear. Jesus came to seek and save the lost! He is there. Holding out His hand. Give Him permission to come into your hearts right now and rescue you from the pits of despair!

Aunt Frances Sep.22,2020

 Boy, when you loose a family member it sure is hard! Especially being behind bars. Now, I know some may see us inmates as nothing more than hardened criminals with no feelings or regard for humanity. However, I have seen numerous men in my dorm i particular just in the past 2 months on their rear ends with their heads buried i their knees balling like babies from the pain of losing a loved one. I missed my Aunt before i got locked up even! But boy is there tons of great memories of her house in Vanlue Ohio! Holidays spent together with my cousins i the house that always smelled like a gas leak..The love was so full every time we were together as a family! Her contagious laugh..shoot, did she laugh! I love her so much! Praise God she is i Heaven with her sister (Grandma) Martha singing praises to the Father for eternity! We as followers of Jesus will see her again one day, maybe soon! For those who don't know this Jesus..what is stopping you from giving your life to the One Who died to give you life eternal?! Now is the time! We as a family, pray that that the Lord would bring us comfort and peace, and fill us with His joy as only He can. I the mighty name of Jesus we pray! My beloved cousins, know that you are all in my prayers. Heck, you're in all our prayers in this prison. The body of believers are praying for you! I love and miss you all so much!

The Disappointed God

 "Dang! I did it again!" "I've lived for years backslidden!" "God sure is mad at me now. God must be disappointed, again!" How many of us have had these thoughts? I know I have! Why do you think that is? Didn't John say in 1 John that God is love? And perfect love casts out fear? ( 1John 4:16, 18) Growing up I was scared of God! Every time a severe thunderstorm came I thought " God's mad at me for- insert sin- ." Yet Father God is NOT human! His thoughts our not like ours, His thoughts are higher! Surprise!! See y'all, we compare our Heavenly Father with our earthly father, and our human emotions. Yet God IS love! The Apostle Paul speaks about it in 1 Corinthians 13. He says Love endures long and is patient and kind. Love isn't arrogant or rude,is not touchy or fretful. Takes no account of evil done to it. Love never rejoices in injustice. Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of everybody. Y'all, Love NEVER FAILS! Glory to God! Hallelujah!! The Maker of Head in and earth. The One Who knit you together I. your Mothers womb, Who knows your beginning and end, He IS Love and He loves you! Now, I'm no expert, but I believe what the Bible says! Jeremiah 29:11 AMP God is speaking and He says; " For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome." Beloved friends, God knows every poor choice we will make. Yet He still is steadfast in loving us exactly where we are, waiting for us to turn back to Him! When we sin we know we must repent and ask forgiveness. God will forgive us of ALL sins if we confess to Him.(1 John 1;9)